I laid in my bed staring at the cealing in the dark. The only thing you could hear was my heavy breaths and the winds calming noise rasping on the windows outside. I shut my eyes and felt the memories stream into my head, separating my lips from each other and breathing out slowly I remembered everything. The feelings came streaming back to me. I shot out of bed and almost fell out of bed to avoid the thoughts. I grasped onto the duvet and felt it under my fingers as I held the other hand over my hurting stomach feeling the tears in my throat building up. I fell to my knees and felt a lonely tear escape my eye and felt it run down my cheek. It's all too much.

When I'd finally got myself together I got up on shaky legs and stepped out of the dark room. With my hair hanging down freely down my shoulders I took a hold of the doorframe to hold my body up as I kept walking through the dark corridor. It was in the middle of the night, you could tell by the silence and the darkness from outside. I made my way across the soft carpet underneath my feet and kept walking towards Kat's room, I really needed someone to talk to. But for some reason my body stopped in front of the room where Aiden were sleeping in. It was like I needed to see him, just hear his voice and look at him. I bit my bottom lip softly before pressing my palm against the white door and opening it carefully. Seeing him laying soundless asleep on the bed brung back some memories. I tipped towards the bed as I pressed my lips together I took a hold of the duvet and lifted it slightly as I slipped inside. Feeling the warmth of his skin on mine he suddenly moved around and opened his eyes looking at me.
"Amara?", he said sleepishly and raised his eyebrows questainly. I kept my lips pressed together as I moved closer to him in the bed, he opened his mouth to say something but didn't as I put my arm across his bare chest and put my head on it. He put his arms around me and rested his chin on my head, this whiteout no words said. After a while of listening to his familiar heartbeats, which were faster then normal, I felt myself getting sleepy so I shut my eyes and fell into a deep sleep.

The next morning I got disturbed by someone removing the dark curtains from the window so the sunlight struck my eyes. I grunted and put my hand over my eyes, rubbing them slightly.
"Morning sunshine", Aiden said smirking widely, I grunted again and sat up slowly. I raised my eyebrows at him when I saw his smirk was still placed upon his lips.
"What?", I hissed and he wiggled his eyebrows before exiting the room. I rolled my eyes but slipped out of bed easily and walked over to the door looking through so no one was there. I saw no one and got out of Aidens room and into the corridor.
"Amara?", I heard Kat's voice behind me, turning around I smiled.
"Oh, Kat - Hi..", I said and rubbed the back of my head awkwardly. She was just about to ask me why I came out of Aidens room when the alarm started ringing in the house. We exchanged a look and ran towards our bosses office whiteout saying anything else. We got inside and saw him sat as usual on his chair, Aiden was also in the room leaning against the wall giving me looks now and then.
"What the problem boss?", Katherine asked and I crossed my arms over my chest, realizing I was only wearing my nightgown. Shit.
"It's Bradshaw, he's got the double J's taking over one of our stations in north", he started and showed us on the digital map on the screen where the station were. I raised my eyebrow and examined the map.
"-And I want you girls to take it back", he said again and then turned to Aiden.
"You too", he continued and Aiden nodded before giving me a fast look.
"Alright, let's go", I said and excited the room knowing there was no time to loose.

I went into my room and walked over to my closet taking out a black pair of tight skinny jeans and a red tank top. I put it on and also put on my black leather jacket over before grabbing my sword and gun and walking out of my room meaning up with the others. Aidens eyes widened when he saw me but he stopped looking when Kat gave him a questioning look. I grabbed the keys to the car but Katherine walked over to me and snitched them out of my hand.
"Hey!", I said and she laughed slightly, I rolled my eyes but took a hold of the keys to the motorcycle instead. Aiden stood there watching us, having no clue what he was gonna do. I laughed slightly and grabbed the black helmet.
"Go with Kat.. - and be nice!", I shouted to Aiden and smirked before putting on the helmet and starting the motorcycle. I drove to where the station were according to the map, seeing Kat and Aiden just behind. God I hope they'll not kill each other.

When I arrived I parked the motorcycle just outside in the dark, seeing Katherine parking the car a bit away. Aiden and Kat stepped out of the car and I jumped off the motorcycle, taking off the helmet and swinging my hair in the air. I walked over to them and we got over a plan before getting into the building. When me and Katherine had stepped into the building the door suddenly slammed, shutting Aiden out from the building. Me and Kat exchanged a look before we tried opening the door.
"We're not getting this open", I said and we stopped trying knowing that the double J's had planned this. We pulled up our guns and walked around in the dark building, trying to find the double J's. We entered the middle of the building and I looked around, seeing nothing unusual but before I could do anything else Josh and James came sliding down from the ceiling with the help of two ropes. I gasped slightly as I wasn't prepared and Josh hit the gun out of my hand, so did James with Kat.

The guys had tied up onto a big pole and me and Katherine sat back to back while James guarded us, with Josh doing god knows what.
"What are you planning?", Katherine spoke and James leaned down in front of her. I didn't see much but I saw him touching her cheek before smirking and standing up again.
"Oh, Kat. When are you ever gonna learn?", he chuckled and turned around meeting Josh. They exchanged a word before Josh walked over to us and untied me from the pole, taking a hold of my upper arm stiffly. I stared at him, but he didn't even look at me once. He took me up the stairs and out onto the big balcony, the balcony was on a big cliff that ended over the sea. I gasped slightly, feeling the panick starting in me again.
"W-what are you doing?", I asked him but he just pushed me in front of him pulling up a gun. I fell onto the stone ground and raised my head to look at him. I managed to get up on my feet, while staring the death into my eye I saw Josh fell a tear. With my whole body shaking I backed away slowly.
"I'm sorry Amara", he said and closed his eyes while he pulled the trigger. The gunshot echoed through the air and fear struck me. I'm gonna die..
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Cliffhanger..

xoxo, lovi.

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The words just played in my head over and over again.
"He's dead",

I couldn't believe my ears, the first guy I actually loved and still do is dead and its because of me.
"I'm sorry Kat", Amara started, I didn't even wanted to hear anything. Because 'sorry' is not gonna bring him back to me, sorry is not gonna help.
"Sorry? You're sorry?", I said with a loud voice. I closed my lips and shook my head with anger in my eyes.
"Sorry doesn't even cover it", I said again and disappeared before she could say anything.
I was broken in pieces, I couldn't believe it. How is this possible? Why am I the reason of his death? I though to myself and I didn't even realise till now was on the rooftop. I sat down with my legs hanging down, I looked down at all the people going around in the mall with smiles on their faces. They all were so normal, they had normal lifes and normal problems.
Why can't I have a normal life? Why can't I go near someone without them dying later? Why can't I be happy? I keep on thinking as the tears just roll down my eyes. Scott was my actual real love, I've never had the same feeling towards other guys I'd dated. Scott was different but in a good way. He was the most protective boyfriend ever but I liked it, I loved knowing he cared for me so much. He was that kind of guy you wouldn't mind being stuck with for the rest of you're life. He was a bad guy so no regular girls got near him because they were afraid of him, but they were afraid because of all the bad things they heard abut him. They never knew the real him, they didn't knew the Scott I knew. The sweet, caring Scott. He was the only one who could understand me and all the pain I went through.
And now he's dead. The only person that understood my pain was gone. My lifesaver is gone.. Forever.
"Katherine!", I heard Amara shout interrupting my thoughts. It was too late and before I knew it I was fighting with the double J's.
"I'm so not in the mood for you guys", I said and took out my gun and pointed it at Josh. I forgott about James. James came from behind me and held me real tight so I was literary pressed to him.
"Damn..", he whispred in my ear, I could feel him smirk. What does he mean with 'Damn'? I kicked him with my foot as he let go of me. I took my other gun out and pointed it at both of them.
"She's cocky", James said as I rolled my eyes and Josh just smirked at me. And like that Amara stood by my side, I looked at her surprisly but kept my attention on Josh and James.
"Ah, two flies in one hit", James said and looked at us both. Both me and Amara rolled our eyes, I avoided her stares and kept holding my guns pointed at the double J's.
"What are you doing here?", Amara asked and looked first at Josh and then James but she looked back at Josh.
"I could ask you the same thing", he said and stared at her.
"We happened to look for a guy named Aiden Shaw, we know you had.. a past", Josh answered her question. I lifted my eyebrows in surprise. How can he know about that?
"I don't know what you're talking about", Amara said and I stiffened beside her.
"Cut the crap Cupid, just tell me where he is and we won't hurt you", James said with a harsh tone of voice. I made a face, so did Amara. Who does he think he is? I thought but got intruppted my Aiden's voice in the background.
"Her names Amara", he said with his dark voice and stepped out of the shadows. I gasped as my eyes went on James. He looked at me with a smirk and winked, I lifted my eyebrows as he turned his attention to Aiden who now was pointing two big guns at the double J's. I turned my attention to Amara as she mouthed 'on three', to me and I nodded. She held up her fingers behind her back and showed from three, two.. one. Both of us kicked the boys on their backs so they fell, I bent down and grabbed James gun before I ran over to Aiden as Amara joined my side. We ran together down the stairs. Amara locked the door and we kept running, we got out of the building.
When we got to our 'work' building Aiden opened the door for us, I walked in with fast steps. Today was just too much.
"Hey-..", Amara said beside me and I looked at her knowing what she was gonna say so I cut her off.
"Amara, it's okay.. I kinda overreacted", I said and faked smiled making her smile. I didn't want to talk about, it just made it worse.
"I'm sorry", Amara said after a while and I nodded fake smiling again and we hugged tightly. Aiden caught up with us, I looked at them both before I excused myself and walked away. I went straight to my room and laid down on my bed. Amara can deal with our boss and Aiden.

"I love you Katherine", he said making me smile widely as I kissed him still smiling.
"I love you too", I said and kissed him again. The kiss became deeper and more passionated, our tongues were fighting for domination. I finally let him win and he started exploring my mouth. I felt fireworks going on inside of me, I started smiling and he stopped kissing me as we backed away.
"What?", he said and gave me a small smile.
"Nothing", I said and smilied looking deep into his eyes.
"Tell me..", he said and held my hand caressing it.
"It's just that.. I feel so happy when I'm with you. I have no worries or cares in the world, I feel safe when I'm with you", I said and smiled as I laid down putting my head on his chest. I looked up at the stars above us, we were on a rooftop having the best moment of our lifes.
"You know I love you more than anything and I will do anything to make you happy. You're the girl of my dreams, your the only person I love. No matter what happens I will always love you", he said softly making me smile.
"I never had a safe place to land. But I do now", I said and smiled at him listening to his heartbeat.
"I will always be here for you. Forever?", he asked and kissed my forhead waiting for my answer.
"Forever", I said and kissed him hard on the lips. He lifted me up so I was on top of him as he was kissing me. His hands were messaging my back as the kiss got deeper. And then it stopped.
"Katherine, I'm sorry but I have to leave you", he said as I sat up looking at him chocked.
"What are you talking about?", I said feeling tears forming in my eyes.
"I'm sorry babe. I never meant to leave you but I have to", he said and stood up as I stood up with him.
"Please stay, I thought you'd never leave me", I said with tears running down my eyes hitting the ground.
"I'm sorry but I don't have any other choice. I love you", he said and like that he was gone, the feeling of holding his hand was gone.
"Scott!", I shouted and opened my eyes with tears running down my cheeks.
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So was this chapet done. Pretty sad at the end i know, i actually started crying myself. Lol.
~Sara xoxo