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The words just played in my head over and over again.
"He's dead",

I couldn't believe my ears, the first guy I actually loved and still do is dead and its because of me.
"I'm sorry Kat", Amara started, I didn't even wanted to hear anything. Because 'sorry' is not gonna bring him back to me, sorry is not gonna help.
"Sorry? You're sorry?", I said with a loud voice. I closed my lips and shook my head with anger in my eyes.
"Sorry doesn't even cover it", I said again and disappeared before she could say anything.
I was broken in pieces, I couldn't believe it. How is this possible? Why am I the reason of his death? I though to myself and I didn't even realise till now was on the rooftop. I sat down with my legs hanging down, I looked down at all the people going around in the mall with smiles on their faces. They all were so normal, they had normal lifes and normal problems.
Why can't I have a normal life? Why can't I go near someone without them dying later? Why can't I be happy? I keep on thinking as the tears just roll down my eyes. Scott was my actual real love, I've never had the same feeling towards other guys I'd dated. Scott was different but in a good way. He was the most protective boyfriend ever but I liked it, I loved knowing he cared for me so much. He was that kind of guy you wouldn't mind being stuck with for the rest of you're life. He was a bad guy so no regular girls got near him because they were afraid of him, but they were afraid because of all the bad things they heard abut him. They never knew the real him, they didn't knew the Scott I knew. The sweet, caring Scott. He was the only one who could understand me and all the pain I went through.
And now he's dead. The only person that understood my pain was gone. My lifesaver is gone.. Forever.
"Katherine!", I heard Amara shout interrupting my thoughts. It was too late and before I knew it I was fighting with the double J's.
"I'm so not in the mood for you guys", I said and took out my gun and pointed it at Josh. I forgott about James. James came from behind me and held me real tight so I was literary pressed to him.
"Damn..", he whispred in my ear, I could feel him smirk. What does he mean with 'Damn'? I kicked him with my foot as he let go of me. I took my other gun out and pointed it at both of them.
"She's cocky", James said as I rolled my eyes and Josh just smirked at me. And like that Amara stood by my side, I looked at her surprisly but kept my attention on Josh and James.
"Ah, two flies in one hit", James said and looked at us both. Both me and Amara rolled our eyes, I avoided her stares and kept holding my guns pointed at the double J's.
"What are you doing here?", Amara asked and looked first at Josh and then James but she looked back at Josh.
"I could ask you the same thing", he said and stared at her.
"We happened to look for a guy named Aiden Shaw, we know you had.. a past", Josh answered her question. I lifted my eyebrows in surprise. How can he know about that?
"I don't know what you're talking about", Amara said and I stiffened beside her.
"Cut the crap Cupid, just tell me where he is and we won't hurt you", James said with a harsh tone of voice. I made a face, so did Amara. Who does he think he is? I thought but got intruppted my Aiden's voice in the background.
"Her names Amara", he said with his dark voice and stepped out of the shadows. I gasped as my eyes went on James. He looked at me with a smirk and winked, I lifted my eyebrows as he turned his attention to Aiden who now was pointing two big guns at the double J's. I turned my attention to Amara as she mouthed 'on three', to me and I nodded. She held up her fingers behind her back and showed from three, two.. one. Both of us kicked the boys on their backs so they fell, I bent down and grabbed James gun before I ran over to Aiden as Amara joined my side. We ran together down the stairs. Amara locked the door and we kept running, we got out of the building.
When we got to our 'work' building Aiden opened the door for us, I walked in with fast steps. Today was just too much.
"Hey-..", Amara said beside me and I looked at her knowing what she was gonna say so I cut her off.
"Amara, it's okay.. I kinda overreacted", I said and faked smiled making her smile. I didn't want to talk about, it just made it worse.
"I'm sorry", Amara said after a while and I nodded fake smiling again and we hugged tightly. Aiden caught up with us, I looked at them both before I excused myself and walked away. I went straight to my room and laid down on my bed. Amara can deal with our boss and Aiden.

"I love you Katherine", he said making me smile widely as I kissed him still smiling.
"I love you too", I said and kissed him again. The kiss became deeper and more passionated, our tongues were fighting for domination. I finally let him win and he started exploring my mouth. I felt fireworks going on inside of me, I started smiling and he stopped kissing me as we backed away.
"What?", he said and gave me a small smile.
"Nothing", I said and smilied looking deep into his eyes.
"Tell me..", he said and held my hand caressing it.
"It's just that.. I feel so happy when I'm with you. I have no worries or cares in the world, I feel safe when I'm with you", I said and smiled as I laid down putting my head on his chest. I looked up at the stars above us, we were on a rooftop having the best moment of our lifes.
"You know I love you more than anything and I will do anything to make you happy. You're the girl of my dreams, your the only person I love. No matter what happens I will always love you", he said softly making me smile.
"I never had a safe place to land. But I do now", I said and smiled at him listening to his heartbeat.
"I will always be here for you. Forever?", he asked and kissed my forhead waiting for my answer.
"Forever", I said and kissed him hard on the lips. He lifted me up so I was on top of him as he was kissing me. His hands were messaging my back as the kiss got deeper. And then it stopped.
"Katherine, I'm sorry but I have to leave you", he said as I sat up looking at him chocked.
"What are you talking about?", I said feeling tears forming in my eyes.
"I'm sorry babe. I never meant to leave you but I have to", he said and stood up as I stood up with him.
"Please stay, I thought you'd never leave me", I said with tears running down my eyes hitting the ground.
"I'm sorry but I don't have any other choice. I love you", he said and like that he was gone, the feeling of holding his hand was gone.
"Scott!", I shouted and opened my eyes with tears running down my cheeks.
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So was this chapet done. Pretty sad at the end i know, i actually started crying myself. Lol.
~Sara xoxo

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